Thursday, December 31, 2009

100th post & the end of another year

wow! how special is it that this is my 100th post? that's exciting! i had big plans for my 100th post... first i was going to do a Christmas post and finish up all of our Christmas festivities. then i thought maybe i would push that to a later date and do a 2009 year in review, since it is new years eve and all. but, i haven't had the time to write one of those, so that didn't happen.

so i sit here, wondering what to write? i want to share my heart, open up a bit. but i'm not sure. should i open up on a public blog, for all the world to read? i mean, i know that the Lord has given me things to share and that i haven't even tapped into all the things that He wants me to do, but is this one of them? and then there's always the question of whether or not anyone even reads my blog. do i share my heart if nobody reads?

here i am, at 2:00am, contemplating my life in the form of the blogging world. i cannot believe that 2009 is about to be over. lets just be honest... i'm so ready for a new year! 2009 was not the easiest year for us, and we have been tested in our faith countless times these past twelve months. i'm ready for God to bring something new and something great in with 2010. i know that in the scheme of things, january 1st is just another day that follows a yesterday, like every day we live. but something about the new year just fills me with hope.

i'm not one to make new years resolutions. lets just be honest- how many people do you know that actually keep their new years resolutions? i just know there are things in me that i need to change, and i'm ready to change them. i'm sick of being where i am and am more than ready to move on and become better. there are places in the physical, spiritual, emotional, and mental areas of my life that i know i am lacking, and want to fix. not to mention the state of my home, which i feel is never clean enough and that we cannot ever keep up with it.

but then i start to think- how dare i sit and point out every negative thing about myself? i don't ever want to put my Daddy down for how He made me, because i was made in His image. but i do want to better myself. i don't want to ever become complacent with where i am, but to push myself to become closer to God and grow more in that process.

because lets just be honest... when we grow in the Lord and our hearts become intertwined with His, the areas in our lives that we are lacking suddenly become better. because when we know who we are in Christ and have the confidence of being the person He made us to be, we are excited to change and just BE better.

"and all of us have had that veil removed so we can be mirrors that brightly reflect the glory of the Lord. and as the Spirit of the Lord works within us, we become more & more like Him and reflect His glory even more." 2 corinthians 3:18

so, my blogging goal for 2010 is this: to be a mirror that brightly reflects the glory of the Lord, to you, my readers. whether you are family, friends, or strangers, i want my life to be a reflection of who God is to you. through looking at pictures or reading my heart, and i want you to leave my page feeling encouraged, uplifted, and/or challenged. i want to bless you.

happy new year, bloggers!

ps for those of you who don't know, we have been battling sickness in our house for the last few weeks. from double ear infections (twice!) in nolan to bronchialitis in both boys to nolan testing positive for rsv... well lets just say it has been exhausting. i want to thank those of you who have been praying for us and encourage you that i would say our home is at 85%, which i will take! thank you Lord for still healing!

1 comment:

Nancy said...

Oh Erica! I will pray for your boys...I know from experience, it's more than exhausting.
I'm in a similar place...wanting to be more pleasing to God - sharing his word, letting go of people judging me for everything & just starting fresh in 2010. I'm praying you & your family have a rock solid year with a peace that passes all understanding & a healthy month of January.

The chiropractor that I work with adjusts kids & that helps amazingly with ear infections, I know it would be a drive, but she is wonderful...let me know if you want me to get your boys an appt. (it's only a suggestion, no pressure, I promise!!)